I may as well just give up, I'm trying to navigate through a broken path that I may have helped create. There's a voice without a face, should I be afraid or is it just a voice I created. Should I fight it or should I leave it. I won't fight it for now because I don't know what it is.
I don't know what I'm waiting for... I want to know if it's worth the wait. This is going to take some time to know what I'm trying to find. But it wont take too long to figure out right from wrong. Switch off and let it go...
If you didn't notice all that was parts of songs put in to my words.
This part is for you. Honestly. It's nice to know you are there, it's nice to know there's someone who wants to listen. I'll let you know why I don't want to talk face-to-face about what I'm going through... It's because I feel stupid that I get upset and pissed off with all these small things building up inside and knocking me over like a leaf, when there are other people in the world with far worse things going on in their lives. I always thought I was strong and I wouldn't end up like this... Turns out I'm wrong. And that's why you'll probably never realize how much I thank you for everything you've done.
Bye.
Everyone is balanced differently, everyone has a wall that blocks out the shit, and at some point in our lives, a lot of people seem to have that wall knocked down, and they just can't deal with the shit that is trying to drown them.
ReplyDeleteI don't blame you for not being able to talk about it face to face.
And if you don't think you're strong now, you're just deluding yourself. Of course you're strong, how else would you have been able to put up with what the world has thrown you so far? So many people wouldn't have been able to, trust me.
Sometimes it gets too much for all of us.