So I seem to keep stuffing up a lot lately. I don't know why I keep doing it. I think knowing I don't have a normal life with friends any more, or at all(?) is getting to me. I trusted people with things I never wanted to talk about, and now they're forgotten about me.
I can't help being so fucked up. I hate fucking people's lives up. I hate me. I hate what I do naturally. I just want to leave, make myself someone new, but that wont happen. I don't even know why I'm still here. I need to leave school, I only stayed because no one wanted me to go, and now they are too busy to even say hello.