You gave me a birthday present. You knew I was in a rough spot. You gave me a magnet that said "A friend always lends an ear". I guess you never noticed that it works both ways. I am and always will be here to lend an ear to you.
Please, please, please talk to me. Talk to someone. There is more to what you write, there is more that you need to get off your shoulders. Please talk. It will help.