Wednesday, May 12, 2010


I'm going crazy, there's too much to think about so much that confuses me. Gahh, I wish school was over with. I wish I had a job. I wish I had something to describe who I am. I wish I had my own room. I wish I had my own place. I wish I lived down south or in the country somewhere, somewhere that no-one cares what you wear, or what you look like. I would love to be able to go out somewhere in trackies and a jumper and not get weird looks from EVERYONE that sees me.
I wish I could go out and not worry about how much I spend. I wish I knew what the future holds for me. I wish my families would all just talk so it wouldn't be so awkward for me. I wish I was someone else. Yeah I know I have a lot of things I'd wish for so maybe when I find a genie I'll wish for a couple hundred more wishes.

I wish everything was how it used to be, I wish my group of friends weren't falling apart. I wish it was like how it was at the end of year nine. I wish I went to high school with all my friends I grew up with. I wish Woodvale would get over their selves; they aren't that great of a school.

I don't understand why I have to put up with so much shit.
Everyone says I'm hell smart but I don't show it, and I guess it's true.

I love knowing that your always here for me, well you always say that anyway, it's gotten awkward lately, you've seemed to of forgotten the old times, it seems you are sick of it all and you've moved on, it's like the old times are now second possibly even last in your social life, and you've found something else. But I may just be tired and over reacting. Please tell me I am, because I really do miss the old times.

Bye for now.


  1. Your blogs I actually really like, they're so.. raw, so full, you haven't covered feeling up with words.
    Everything changes so bloody much as we grow older.
    I want to revert to old times too, I want everything to be back how it used to be, but time keeps moving on, and I kind of want to see what's in store at the same time. But it's really hard to move forward while you're so strongly emotionally attached to the past.
    At least it is for me, I don't know if it's the same for you.
    I wish so much that we could do something without people fucking judging us. I'd be such a different person.
    I'm always here to talk- We should get together soon, just for a late night chill session, like we used to have.

  2. I do agree, I just want it to be back like the old times when everything seemed perfect compared to now where everything falls apart so easily. We should indeed catch up soon, it feels like that hasn't happened for ages. But it's not hard to change that, we can do something more often.