So I haven't posted in a while. I'm not in the best of moods, so if you get depressed by reading depressing things, then I warn you DON'T read on!
They expect us to walk alone, but seriously it's too hard. I wish we could just say straight out that we are lonely and scared. I need you to tell me that I don't have to be by myself, I want to be promised that things won't always be this bad. I'm laughing but really I'm crying on the inside. I just want this nightmare to be over with.
Smart people aren't the only people in the world. I like doing things as well I'm not a hermit crab that stays in my home all the time, I like going places as well. All alone while everyone sees daylight.
Have you ever felt:
- Loneliness
- Fear
- Guilt
- Confusion
- Rejection
- Discomfort
And the list goes on...
You probably have felt all these things but to what extent? Have you had it every day of your life knowing that it probably won't ever go away? Yes to all of that.
A lot of people think I'm and idiot, think it's nothing, believe it will go away the second something good happens, well the truth is it won't it's not that easy, it would be one of the hardest things to go through in your life. Unfortunately I can't go through it I have to live with it everyday, all week, every month, all year for the rest of my life. Try having someone really close to you die daily and maybe then you might feel half of what I go through.
Probably sick of me by now.
So.... Bye.
Another person in pain, another dying heart, another crying soul. Looks like we have establish some common grounds. Funny isn't it? The most normal of kids are the ones with the most fucked up lives? How does that on work out huh?
ReplyDeleteI'm happy that you have come across to writing it. It does really help when you know there is some place you can really express you feelings. Life is a bitch and people never seem to make it easier. Ignore it all, do what I do. Eventually you have to face the problem, but as long as you can go on pretending, the longer it won't affect you.